OK, to start I really have no idea what I am doing, when it comes to writing but I will try as I have gotten many requests to write a story about this amazing love story/fairy tale that I am living. Two years ago I had gotten this friend request on facebook and it was just some guy who wanted to be my neighbor on farmville, well little did I know that this man would grow to become my best friend, my lover, my husband and now to be a father. At that time in my life I wasn't looking for anything I was just getting out of a 10 year relationship that I was more then ready to say goodbye to. I just never had the courage and then this mysterious friend request that turned into a friendship gave me more then the courage I needed. Now to give you a little more detail he was not from Florida or Texas or anywhere even in the same country, which believe it or not I didn't even realize until after talking to him for a month. He's from the country of Jordan( Middle East) so already telling people about him was an issue, everyone immediately started using the terrorist card and telling me stay away etc...I couldn't that was the problem! I used to think he's over 6,000 miles away its not like I will ever meet him anyways, and again I was wrong. He just saw into me in a way no one ever had and accepted me and the billion flaws I had. He didn't care about any mistakes I had ever made, not even for a second did he judge me, and at that time in my life I really needed someone like that. I guess there was just something about him and more and more I always wished and prayed he wasn't so far away and I could meet him. In a way I was so intrigued how could someone not judge me and hold me accountable, everyone else does, why didn't he? What is he all about? whats his past? He must have done something real bad to not judge me. The more we learned about each other the more and more I just wanted to meet him and every time we would chat I felt like nothing else in this world existed but him, me and the computer. I always thought if I feel like this through chat I can only imagine how I would feel face to face with him.
Then chat started turning into Skype, countless and countless hours of web cam, I believe our longest record was 17 hours at one time, and we never ran out of a thing to say. To be honest I think I started looking at him like the forbidden fruit that I could never have. Then when we couldn't chat for a day or two I felt so empty and I hated it. Sometimes it was hard he was 7 hours ahead of me in time and we both worked and sometimes our schedules just did not permit us to talk.
OK so here's where it gets interesting, we had started talking about the possibility of meeting in person and he really did not want me to come there but for him to come here, would require a visa. We weren't engaged or anything so how it would work I didn't know. Then people started warning me watch out he is going to use you for a visa to come to America, I thought they were crazy but yet part of me was still semi cautious what if that is all he wants and is putting on an amazing act, how well do I really know him? So over time we started expressing feelings and we both felt like the other one could be the other half that we were missing. All I knew was I couldn't stay away from him. So then he tells me one day he had applied to go to school in China, and he got accepted and got a visa to go to school there. Now remind you he had expressed much desire to get out of his country, he hated it there. So here it was a ticket for him to get out. Of course I was happy and supportive but at the same time sad cause if he went what would happen, I probably would never see him. At one point he knew I was scared and hurt and he even promised I won't go, I couldn't let that happen and I then made a comment in a very joking type of manner I will meet you in China. I don't think I was actually serious when I said this but yet part of me was. I just couldn't bare the thought of losing this man when I haven't had a chance to at least meet him.
People talk about the crazy things we do for love and here's where I put a whole new meaning to that phrase "Crazy in Love". I lived in a small one bedroom apartment and worked enough to pay some bills and rent and that's it. The idea of China and going there was far beyond my reach almost an illusion..until...I knew if I wanted to meet this mysterious man, this man who was capturing my heart, this man that I just couldn't get away from, I would have to go to China. So it was settled I was going to China to meet a complete stranger and I was going alone. I was what you may call taking a chance on love. I started to save every penny I had, didn't pay rent, barely ate, and just worked worked and worked some more, and somehow managed to save enough money to pay for a plane ticket, and my visa for China. Now being careless as I know I have been many times before I got excited and just wanted to get to him that I lost touch with reality and didn't even think about how I would get back once there and I bought a one way ticket to China. I didn't care I just knew finally this mystery would be solved. I was determined and careless at the same time. So it was set he even helped me book my ticket and then for the couple weeks following my nerves and every other emotion in my body were like a lightening storm, just haywire. So the night before I showed up at my parents door with a plane ticket some pocket money and hopeful they would drive me to the airport the next day. I packed and was ready to go, and I don't think to this day I realized what I was really doing almost like going to China was the same as going to Florida. To be Continued.....
Then chat started turning into Skype, countless and countless hours of web cam, I believe our longest record was 17 hours at one time, and we never ran out of a thing to say. To be honest I think I started looking at him like the forbidden fruit that I could never have. Then when we couldn't chat for a day or two I felt so empty and I hated it. Sometimes it was hard he was 7 hours ahead of me in time and we both worked and sometimes our schedules just did not permit us to talk.
OK so here's where it gets interesting, we had started talking about the possibility of meeting in person and he really did not want me to come there but for him to come here, would require a visa. We weren't engaged or anything so how it would work I didn't know. Then people started warning me watch out he is going to use you for a visa to come to America, I thought they were crazy but yet part of me was still semi cautious what if that is all he wants and is putting on an amazing act, how well do I really know him? So over time we started expressing feelings and we both felt like the other one could be the other half that we were missing. All I knew was I couldn't stay away from him. So then he tells me one day he had applied to go to school in China, and he got accepted and got a visa to go to school there. Now remind you he had expressed much desire to get out of his country, he hated it there. So here it was a ticket for him to get out. Of course I was happy and supportive but at the same time sad cause if he went what would happen, I probably would never see him. At one point he knew I was scared and hurt and he even promised I won't go, I couldn't let that happen and I then made a comment in a very joking type of manner I will meet you in China. I don't think I was actually serious when I said this but yet part of me was. I just couldn't bare the thought of losing this man when I haven't had a chance to at least meet him.
People talk about the crazy things we do for love and here's where I put a whole new meaning to that phrase "Crazy in Love". I lived in a small one bedroom apartment and worked enough to pay some bills and rent and that's it. The idea of China and going there was far beyond my reach almost an illusion..until...I knew if I wanted to meet this mysterious man, this man who was capturing my heart, this man that I just couldn't get away from, I would have to go to China. So it was settled I was going to China to meet a complete stranger and I was going alone. I was what you may call taking a chance on love. I started to save every penny I had, didn't pay rent, barely ate, and just worked worked and worked some more, and somehow managed to save enough money to pay for a plane ticket, and my visa for China. Now being careless as I know I have been many times before I got excited and just wanted to get to him that I lost touch with reality and didn't even think about how I would get back once there and I bought a one way ticket to China. I didn't care I just knew finally this mystery would be solved. I was determined and careless at the same time. So it was set he even helped me book my ticket and then for the couple weeks following my nerves and every other emotion in my body were like a lightening storm, just haywire. So the night before I showed up at my parents door with a plane ticket some pocket money and hopeful they would drive me to the airport the next day. I packed and was ready to go, and I don't think to this day I realized what I was really doing almost like going to China was the same as going to Florida. To be Continued.....
